Chained

Lost in your silence and uncertainty

I pass by you scared to know how you feel or don't feel

I know how I feel with no uncertainties except your feelings

Day by day I walk by you on eggshells with my feelings closed up.

Never being able to fully share my thoughts to you for fear of your true feelings

I kiss you with open lips but I speak to you with closed lips

Never able to share my deep feelings never able to fully fall into your arms

Part of me is lost and hidden with your silent thoughts

The quietness of your heart casts a shadow upon me

Closed

Breathing..... alone and completely dying little by little inside.
Slowly shriveling away from this existance.
Eyes closed and sight displaced by the lack of love she recieves.
Curled up in the darkness lost in the mass of blankets she hides herself in.
She opens her heart onley to be left over and over yet again.
Never more will she feel the security of someone at her side.
Back against the wall she will never have all that she thought she had but was mistaken.

Beaten

I'm crumbling unable to scream out muted by your presence.
Forever lost in all that I give to you never repaid and replenished.
I go on malnourished from your lack of caring or your self nurtured stupidity.
Walked all over and custom fit when at your side.
But blamed and broken from you at a distance.
Future less in your mind I crawl into my corner shaken by the tears cutting at my skin.
Lost in your shadow my identity is forgotten by you.
So I crumble and crawl a faceless mute with everything kicked into the blank space atop my shoulders.
Still though I scream out muted but heard only by myself.
Lost in all the inability thrust upon me.