Carelessly Tormented

I feel the collapse I feel the downfall the struggle that rages all tangled up on the inside.
All tearing me up on the inside I feel the destruction and the severity of it all.
I tear at everything ripping it all to pieces leaving nothing left but the broken.
I claw at anything to stop this downfall.
I felt it all grasping and choking me tightly I feel the numbness and welcome it.
Letting go and falling back into the blank grayness.
Letting the dust and cobwebs scatter about this broken heart of mine
I let these useless emotions crackle and breakdown into nothingness.
I’m cascading into a swirl of negative emotions that have burdened and surrounded my presence.
I look into the ravaged darkness that reflects my carelessly tormented heart and just release myself to it‘s darkness.

Little angel just self destructs

She does it to herself she just did it to herself again never know why she does this time and time again.
There’s just something wrong with her, self destruct cut the flesh let it go fade away.
What is wrong with her she just says nothing and keep it all inside.
she feel as though she needs to leave and check out, just let it go and self destruct again.
Somebody just put her out of this misery she’ll never know when this will end somebody just end this.
Never know how she feels, never know what to do, she’ll never know all that she destroys now self destruct.
Just self destruct cut the flesh fade away give in.
she feels as if she is running from all that she has become never know if it was all just her fault.
Never know if she will deserve all that she receives broken down beat down runaway let it go.
Wingless angel self destructs daily cuts herself deeply and prays to no one, faith lost with the wings she never had.
Self worth pawned long ago with that crooked halo of hers.
Thorns adorn her cuts poison seeping out those weeping eyes leaving black stains down her porcelain skin .
Faith no more, lost when those imaginary wings were lost, lost when that innocence faded along with her smile.
She self destructs she cuts the flesh now she just lets go and she’s fading away unnoticed.
She looks up at the sky screaming go to hell I’m better off with out you better off without your empty promises.
How could you deceive me, all is well being lost without you.
You sold me out I always thought I could trust you.
Wingless angel self destructs daily, cuts herself deeply and prays to no one, faith lost with those wings she never had.
Scrub those stains away but tarnished you’ll always be let the poison seep scrub those stains once again.
Stains lie like badges on her porcelain skin representing the self destruction and her faith no more.
Little fallen angel wingless forever more, self destructs daily and cuts herself deeply prays to no one faith lost with those wings she never had.
Little angel just self destructs.

Black hole

I find myself so utterly depressed.
I feel like I am spinning around in circles and only darkness and echoes are surrounding me.
I feel like my next breath is a hopeless and worthless attempt at life.
I just need to accomplish one thing on my list just one thing and I feel like things will lighten up a bit.
I just find it impossible to accomplish anything no matter how hard I try.
Everything on my list ties into each other so with out one thing accomplished nothing else will be accomplished.
I feel so ridiculous that i'm struggling so much at this age with such simple things.
The sad part is I have nowhere to look for help.
The one person that would help doesn't have the means to.
An the one that promises never fallows through and I can't do it on my own I have tried.

I am just so lost and and sinking into the darkness further and further.
I need to reach out and grab hold of a rope soon or I think I might just give up all together.
I know I sound overly dramatic and emo but it's become very overwhelming with everything.
I have tried to keep as positive as I can about everything.
Simply because what you put out into the universe comes back threefold and everything but it's very hard.
I've been struggling here for so long with no light at the end of the tunnel and i'm scared that my tunnels finally caving in.
I just need a break just one small break one good thing to get me close enough to my goals to lift some negativity off.