Broken

I have nothing and no one I run from these false promises.

I seek refuge from these false people and there persona's.

The distance I've run from these memories, this pain that scars me.

Clouded by the hope I should of let go a long time ago.

Believing in someone who has left me but remains an empty shell by my side.

Here I've been right beside you, but you've imprisoned me in this box and forgotten me.

Alone with nothing peering into this pinhole realizing you have cast me into this prison.

Through my hope, through my love I have been blinded, broken and locked away.

I peer through the blackness of my dungeon.

Unfulfilled wishes helplessness and a broken heart all casualties of your love.

My many scars may be carried out with these two hands but there creation is all yours.

Through the darkness I now clearly see this all started with the false sense of security that you fed me and the invented love that you choked me with.

Feed me no more here I lie you're hand prints around my neck.

It's all been seen you're puppet I've been, the strings you've wrenched now lay limp and afoul before me.

Chained

Lost in your silence and uncertainty

I pass by you scared to know how you feel or don't feel

I know how I feel with no uncertainties except your feelings

Day by day I walk by you on eggshells with my feelings closed up.

Never being able to fully share my thoughts to you for fear of your true feelings

I kiss you with open lips but I speak to you with closed lips

Never able to share my deep feelings never able to fully fall into your arms

Part of me is lost and hidden with your silent thoughts

The quietness of your heart casts a shadow upon me

Closed

Breathing..... alone and completely dying little by little inside.
Slowly shriveling away from this existance.
Eyes closed and sight displaced by the lack of love she recieves.
Curled up in the darkness lost in the mass of blankets she hides herself in.
She opens her heart onley to be left over and over yet again.
Never more will she feel the security of someone at her side.
Back against the wall she will never have all that she thought she had but was mistaken.

Beaten

I'm crumbling unable to scream out muted by your presence.
Forever lost in all that I give to you never repaid and replenished.
I go on malnourished from your lack of caring or your self nurtured stupidity.
Walked all over and custom fit when at your side.
But blamed and broken from you at a distance.
Future less in your mind I crawl into my corner shaken by the tears cutting at my skin.
Lost in your shadow my identity is forgotten by you.
So I crumble and crawl a faceless mute with everything kicked into the blank space atop my shoulders.
Still though I scream out muted but heard only by myself.
Lost in all the inability thrust upon me.

Foreshadow

I'm glad you don't notice, i'm glad that you can't see.
So happy to blend into the shadows, so happy to be unheard.
Forever I followed adding to the value of your life.
Forever no more I shall be cast the shadow to your light.
Lost in all of you, made into the hollow.
Never more shall I be lurking in your existance.
Veiled in your importance and my lack of.

Quick quote

"The slowest way to end it all is through living my life with the depression that numbs my happiness"

Broken Defeat

Trapped knowing that one day all I am will end. Lock the doors close the windows hiding behind what you think I am. Forever more what you see is a false representation of who I am. Look past who I really am because all you see is this generic mask of what you want. Classify me and file me away with all of your toys. Locked away behind these doors and closed in behind these windows. Wind me up and play with me broken and hidden with what you want. Yet still I stay trapped knowing that all I am not will not end. Because all I was has ended because of you.